Friday, June 24, 2016

What to Expect - Five Month Old Baby Violet...!!!

Hey Y'all,

It's that time of month again. Violet turned five months old last Sunday. I am watching the most amazing person in my life grow up right before my eyes. My little girl is growing up so fast. I honestly can not believe that it was only five months ago she was born. Its amazing to me that I am a mother now. I always knew that someday I would probably have children but I never imagined it to be like this. I mean there are a lot of things I'm sure I really like about parenthood yet. I mean sometimes it feels like my boyfriend and I both don't get enough sleep. It feels sometimes that dealing with her crying at anytime in the middle of the night puts us both into a wonderful mood. I have noticed that lately I have not been able to get very good sleep in a good while now. Last night, I felt so out of it that I fell asleep. I guess I must of been over exhausted but this week has gone by the same as any other. I sometimes wish parenting could be easier for me. But at the same time I count my blessings thanking the world that my daughter doesn't cry 24/7.

My little princess is growing up so fast. It makes me want yell at her to stop doing it. I know, I know. My daughter takes up all my time. She wants all my attention. I've learned its not easy being a parent. Its not easy balancing my work life with those of the people that I care about. It will be especially difficult once my boyfriend starts his new job. But like everything else life throws at us now. We will get through it. We always do.

She has moved to sitting up on her own. My little one loves to talk. She hasn't said her first true word yet. Violet is also learning to roll over. That means that soon she will most likely start to crawl. I can't wait until we get to start chasing her around the house. Which reminds me we should start baby proofing the house. I never knew how hard it is to become a parent. You literally have to throw everything you love out the window. You also have to make some pretty big changes to your lifestyle.

I love my family so much. I am so happy with my life. There are always way to make things better but I am pretty content with the way things seem to be going for me right now. I am slightly worried that I am a terrible mom and girlfriend. I am terrified that I wont be the mother my daughter deserves or the girlfriend my boyfriend deserves either.