Friday, April 29, 2016

What to Expect - Three Month Old Baby, Violet...!!!

Hey Y'all.

I fall asleep every night wondering what it means to be a good parent. I wake up during the night to tend to my daughters needs. I feed her, change her diaper, and I change her into new clothes when the ones she are wearing are starting to look disgusting and gross. A few days ago, my daughter turned three months old. She is progressing well. She is reaching her milestones that have been set online for the babies. I think she may be ahead of the game though. It says online that she may start to recognize my boyfriend and I, It also says that she will start to try and talk to us more which she has been doing for weeks now. Its the cutest thing to watch her try and communicate with us with her little coos and gurgling back at us as we talk to her. She is beginning to discover her hands and discover the different things that exist in her ever growing world. 

I get frustrated sometimes at night when I get awoken by my daughters cues that say she needs me to full fill one of her needs. It can be frustrating taking care of this small one that depends on you for everything in life. I wouldn't have it any other way. I just know that sometimes I get flustered when she cries and I can't comfort her the way she needs to be comforted. But other than those small times when I feel frustrated and like the world has fallen against me, she smiles at me and I feel the love that I hold for her close to my heart. Her smiles bring such joy to all those who are around her. 

Violet you are my toughest challenge. I do my best everyday to be the mother you deserve, I love you so much. I didn't know such a love could exist like this, to experience this love I have for you.  One day I hope you read my blog and look back on all the things we share as mother and daughter. I look forward to watch you to continue to grow into the amazing person I'm sure your going to be. I know your going to grow up to be such an amazing young woman. I look forward to every step along that path we walk together. I look forward to watching you become the person you are meant to be.